You might still remember my past blog post of me talking about how much I need to figure things out, and here's an update: I still haven't got any clue and I think it's okay.
I'm in my early twenties and like any other people my age, I spend a lot of time on the internet reading tons of life advice because I'm very insecure about my life. From countless of articles I stumbled upon the internet, vast majority of them said that this is the time for me to do whatever the hell I want. As long as I'm unmarried, no dependents and have a little bit of savings, then I can travel the whole world if I want to and make love with strangers I just met on the streets. I really like that idea of being independent and adventurous a lot, but as much as I'm trying to plant that thoughts at the back of my head, that's just not who I am.
A friend once said to me, "People try so hard to get out of their comfort zone, but the truth is there's nothing wrong with being comfortable because you live for yourself" and it stays with me. Contrary to popular belief, it is actually okay to stay in your safe bubble as long as you want. There will come times when you're finally ready to burst out of the bubble to try something new, and granted you will be okay then. We have our own pace, and if you're a little behind than everyone around you don't beat yourself up.
People might not notice this about me when they see how outgoing and crazy I am around people, but my self-esteem is not the greatest and I have issues about being confident of what I'm capable of. I can't take compliments well and always give myself a hard time whenever people do say nice things about me. It frustrates me how I can't just accept praises with a gratitude, but I'm learning to slowly peel off this layer of personality that I don't like about myself because it stops me from having my moment. I am worthy of flattery, and you are too. Focus to cultivate positivity in your space of living. You only have one life, might as well enjoy the heck out of it.
I'm not sure what I want to achieve from making this post because it feels like I'm writing advice for myself while also addressing the issue that I'm battling with so it's kind of contradicting in a way. Hear me out, life is very simple. The formula to live the life you want is to find a way, not an excuse.
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